WARNING: MENTIONS FOOD!
I have good and bad news. The bad news is when my mother found out I was fasting, she was completely against it. She almost force-fed me right there(Thank goodness she didn't!) When I told her I had only fasted for 4 days, she didn't believe me, we had a HUGE fight and are barely on speaking terms.
She called our family doctor(Call her Dr. H) who inconveniently had an opening for 11am today. When we got there, Dr. H weighed me, checked my blood pressure(118/76), and did other things. Dr. H told my mother that she had no reason to not believe me and that other than the fact that I'm obese, I'm perfectly healthy.
Dr. H advised me to stop my fast. Which I said I would(wasn't planning on it, just lying.)
On the drive back home, my mother stopped at Taco Bell, got one of those box things(1 taco, a gordita, and a burrito supreme!!!) and a large Pepsi for herself, and ordered a nacho Bel grande and a 7 layer burrito for me.
As soon as she got the food, she parked us in the parking lot and gave me my food. I was arguing the whole time. She knows that after stopping a fast you're supposed to slowly get back into food with vegetables and fruit, the doctor fricking told her even!
She told me to shut up and eat or she would take away my computer, cell phone, and not allow me to see B or K.
By then I was crying and she had already eaten her taco and was almost done with her burrito supreme. I took a bite of the 7 layer burrito and gagged as I swallowed. It didn't even taste good, it tasted like grease! She was glaring at me, so I finished the 7 layer quickly and asked if we could go home. She started driving us home, while eating her gordita. Then she told me to eat the nacho Bel grande. Normally I would get a supreme at most, but the grandes are huge! I ate about half of it and she finished the rest.
I feel like a failure. I feel even fatter then I am and I wish I could have done something to have prevented this. When I got home, I tried to purge, but then remembered I promised myself I was going to stop doing that. This is so stressful, however, I'm sure you want the good news?
The good news is just now even after I ate that grease, even though I'm on my period, and even though it's 10pm already, I weigh in at 263.4lbs. That means that I lost 12.6 lbs in just under 4 days! I don't even care that most of it is water weight! I'm just glad to be out of the 270's and so close to the 250's.
Now I have 10 days until my birthday and 17 days until school starts. 17 days to lose 4.4 lbs=EASY! I could even get lower than 259lbs. Hmm...
My new plan is to lose 8.4 lbs by the day before school starts. That would put me at 255 lbs, a weight I haven't been at since October 18, 2009! 8.4 lbs in 16 days is do-able.
I'm not going to fast for a while. It's too hard to fast when I have to work from 5:30am to 12pm Mon-Fri. I think that for a while, I'm going to do what Dr. H said. She told me that even if I ate 2,000 calories of healthy food each day, I'd still lose weight. Now don't get me wrong, I like Dr. H, but she doesn't know of my slow metabolic rate. She doesn't know that eating 2,000 calories a day would either make me sick or trigger me to binge. My plan is to have 900 calories of healthy food(fruit, veggies, fish, etc.) each day and up to 400 calories of healthy liquid each day. Meaning that if I ate and drank all of my calories, I would still be at 1,300 calories. Not very impressing, even to me, but whatever.
Healthy drinks are water, V8 Fusion Light, green tea, ice tea, coffee, smoothies, fruit juices, Propel, and low cal Gatorade.
Obviously no soda. It's been 184 days since I've had it. :) No bread-y things like bagels, toast, or rolls.
I'll post again tomorrow!
~Little Miss Imperfect
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